Today has not been a good day. It started yesterday, when at midday I made a decision at college not to submit a tender bid for a substantial amount of money. Then first thing this morning I took a rather poorly Hontas to the vet. I was very concerned, and by the time I reached the vet she had gone further down hill and not much later we took the decision to put her to sleep.
Then, as I expected it to, yesterday's decision started to rebound on me as senior managers - who could, of course, wash their hands of the decision, started shooting of emails about how disappointing this was or how serious etc. and calling for an urgent meeting next week. Well, it'll be a Caroline-as-punchbag blame session, so I'm not looking forward to that.
The problem is that, to a certain extend, I am to blame. I can look back and see where I made bad decisions or failed to undertake some action that would have improved the situation. So many stories that are told of stuggle fail to look beyond circumstances or enemies that are against the hero. Sometimes we are the author of our own misfortune, but I fear that I'm in the firing line and that others who should be there will be able to avoid the flying manure and I'll cop for the lot.
sigh, grumble grumble
guess I'd better change my header and drop Hontas' name .. but not just now ..
Sorry to hear the news...
Posted by: Mike | July 23, 2005 at 12:29 AM
Ah, Caroline. Really sorry to hear about Hontas.
Let's get together for lunch/dinner soon.
Posted by: graham | July 24, 2005 at 01:27 AM
I too am sorry to hear about Hontas.
Posted by: anj | July 25, 2005 at 11:41 PM
And me...does hurt such alot.
Hugs (())
(I guess now wouldn't be the right moment to tell you of 9 kittens that need homes...but I could whisper it quietly down here, so you could absorb it subliminally for when you're readly)
Posted by: Kathryn | July 27, 2005 at 09:41 AM
Just found you today (8/8) fellow Northumbrian traveller...I am touched by the demise of your beloved friend. I too put my kitty down last August and we adopted a new friend 4 days later...and again 24 July this year. Two cats are better than one...God be with you as you miss Hontas.
Posted by: Tonya | August 08, 2005 at 06:25 AM
Very sorry to hear about Hontas. Hope that your week's sailing is a real break from all that you have been carrying.
Posted by: hopefulamphibian | August 08, 2005 at 03:00 PM
It's great to hear from you and see what you've been up to. In your blog I feel your enthusiasm for life. thank you.
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